突然好想你

both yong sheng and joseph msn me that they wanna meet during chinese new year, with tab as well.

the first thing came to my mind was "no..."

i've this mixed feeling for a year, which i don't know how to express it in words.
i always think about her, but angry at the same time.

i didn't want to hear anything about her, and yet i want to know how she is doing.
the agony of internal contradiction is like a curse for the whole year, although i didn't show it. probably i did show it, since i've mood swing quite often nowadays. -_- and jing xiang pasted a magnet with our photo on my locker when he ORD, and he wrote "emo kid"

it's now 2009, a new year and a new start.

so i said 'yes' to them. i've been avoiding it long enough and it's time to face it.


P.S. omg... i've posted the same lyric as jeremy, even the music is the same. (please don't bring me to his level. lol.)

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最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息
最怕突然聽到你的消息
想念如果會有聲音 不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自己屬於我自己
只剩眼淚還騙不過自己
突然好想你 你會在哪裡
過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶
突然模糊的眼睛
我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你帶我走過最難忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的紀念品
我們 那麼甜 那麼美 那麼相信那麼瘋 那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去
突然好想你 你會在哪裡過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶
突然模糊的眼睛
最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息
最怕突然聽到你的消息
最怕此生已經決心自己過 沒有你卻又突然聽到你的消息