reality of the metagame

recently the tournament result is getting from bad to worse.
slowly dropping out of constant minimum top 5-6 position in every tournament to being KO in early elimination stage, and ytd is scrubbed with 2 defeats in 1st 2 matches.

metagame is dominated by lightlord variates and cosmo variates (mainly eatos).
one is self-touch, and the other is preventing opponent from self-touch.

and i think this the main reason why i'm struggling in this meta, being too reactive in my gameplay nature. still i'm playing my akb, though it's struggling in this meta. i feel that my built is not weaker than any of the akb that i see on others' websites, or even probably mine is better. in reality, not everything can be like AE86 in initial D. or is it that i'm not as god as takumi?

sam was saying he has no worries for akira for team tourney but me, well, given the result in november and december, i'm indeed the weak link. "i rather you play the deck you play in world tournament." is his comment. and i just replied "i don't feel it's that strong." clearly, WW BF is not as dominating as it was in last ban. it's dependent on farming advantage with WW now, and creating a chance for you to place WW and flow the advantage from there is the key. but i simply feel there're clearly better decks out there, but i get another slap from reality. akira is saying it's strong and he can top 8 with it in asia tournament, and it's me playing too many defensive cards in WW BF. but when i look at the deck list, almost every card is staple or at least things that you'll play with this deck. he pointed out i didn't play hurricane, i agreed that i forgot about it when i wrote out the list. to me, they just wanna be nice and didn't say out that i'm not on par with them.

when there's no result, i suck, even if i'm playing well.
when i've been winning, i'm god, even if there're mistakes.

welcome to reality.